Lost Looking
For Myself
Lost Looking For Myself
1. Don't Let Me Lose Myself Again
2. Waiting For You
3. Home Sweet Home
4. Just Leave Me Here In Bed (feat. Josh Okun)
5. Talk To Me
6. I Don't Want To Rule The World
7. I Suck At Growing Up (feat. Josh Okun)
8. Is This The Life (feat. Josh Okun)
9. Everybody Fakes It
10. Hey Mama
11. I Don't Know How To Pray
12. We'll Take This Road Together
Lyrics
1. Don't Let Me Lose Myself Again
I got lost
Looking for myself
Wearing someone else’s clothes
Like I was hiding and I didn’t know
For too long
My nose was in a book
Too busy to see things change
Now everyone calls me by a different name
Don’t let me lose myself again
Don’t let me lose myself again
For now, it’s all right
I don’t know who I am
I guess it’s all right
I don’t know who I am
I lifted up
The floorboards in the attic
Hell bent on finding the truth
I got tired, tired of being confused
And I’ve spent
So much time searching
I questioned every one of my dreams
Interrogated the man that I used to be
Don’t let me lose myself again
Don’t let me lose myself again
For now, it’s all right
I don’t know who I am
I guess it’s all right
I don’t know who I am
I traveled all over this great big confusing world
And I looked all over the place
And every answer I got I pulled apart so I could dig down deeper still
I think I got a little bit carried away
Don’t let me lose myself again
Don’t let me lose myself again
For now, it’s all right
I don’t know who I am
I guess it’s all right
I don’t know who I am
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2. Waiting For You
As long as there’s a road
That stretches under feet
And you remember how to make it back to me
Our day is coming soon
And I’ll be waiting for you
I’ll be standing by
Hanging out to dry
Calling out your name to the great and empty sky
Our day is coming soon
And I’ll be waiting for you
Oh to be with you
I know that’s what I’m meant to do
It makes me who I am
And you don’t know what I’ve been through
To get through to you
As long as there’s a will
And nothing’s in your way
Follow all the footprints on the path I made
Our day is coming soon
And I’ll be waiting for you
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3. Home Sweet Home
And every house with a “for sale” sign
Has a mystery deep inside
But there was something different about
That old house by sunrise
There was very little work to do
It had a kitchen that was brand new
You fell in love with the hardwood floors
And the basement and the guest room
Oh, it's lookin like we made it
Yea, welcome to our home sweet home
Can't believe it, baby
Now we’ve got a place of our own
Baby we have come a long way
Now we've got our own place
With our name written over the door
And our very own driveway
Cup of coffee, notebook, and a pen
I greet the morning from the couch in the den
Never thought I could feel such pride
Just by opening the mail again
Oh, it's lookin like we made it
Yea, welcome to our home sweet home
Can't believe it, baby
Now we’ve got a place of our own
Oh, it’s lookin like we made it
Yea, welcome to our home sweet home
Can’t believe it, baby
Now we’ve got a place of our own
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4. Just Leave Me Here In Bed
And then I feel the morning air come drifting in with coffee stains
I take a whiff and close my eyes
I fold the old deflated pillow to the my ear
And climb into the old recesses of my mind
Just leave me here in bed
Where I can lay my head
I’ll take tomorrow instead
I never came, I never saw, I never conquered much at all
And that is fine enough by me
The world seems fine, it's still a-turning like before
I guess it wouldn’t mind if I go back to sleep
Just leave me here in bed
Where I can lay my head
I’ll take tomorrow instead
I never came, I never saw, I never conquered much at all
And that is fine enough by me
The world seems fine, it's still a-turning like before
I guess it wouldn’t mind if I go back to sleep
Just leave me here in bed
Where I can lay my head
I’ll take tomorrow instead
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5. Talk To Me
Talk to me
There’s too much worry in your mind
I know because you’ve got those telling eyes
Talk to me
Give me your hand and I will walk you through
You know, you know that I am always here for you
Everything unspoken just ends up a-breaking this old heart
We’re in this together falling apart
Baby
Don’t be afraid to talk to me
Just let your feelings out and let your heart breathe
Everything unspoken just ends up a-breaking this old heart
We’re in this together falling apart
Baby
Don’t be afraid to talk to me
Just let your feelings out and let your heart breathe
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6. I Don't Want To Rule The World
I don’t want to rule the world
I got too much on my plate
I don’t want to rule the world
I would rather run away
I don’t want to rule the world
Ain’t nobody listens to me
I don’t want to rule the world
Don’t go blaming anything on me
Being in charge is worse than it seems
It just ain’t all it’s cracked up to be
The world wants to burn, what can I do
But sit back and enjoy the credits through
I don’t want to rule the world
Go and find somebody else
I don’t want to rule the world
I don’t even trust myself
Being in charge is worse than it seems
It just ain’t all it’s cracked up to be
The world wants to burn, what can I do
But sit back and enjoy the credits through
The world wants to burn, what can I do
But sit back and enjoy the credits through
7. I Suck At Growing Up
Growing up
Is such a sham
The kid I was
Is still who I am
Every weakness, every hang up
Has left me older and banged up
I thought by now I’d have figured it out
I, I must suck at growing up
Yea I, must really suck at growing up
I can’t believe that this is life
This is not what growing up should feel like
Growing up
Has lost its thrill
All I want
Is for time to stand still
Now I’m able to take action
But I’ve outgrown all my passions
I just want to give up for a while
I, I must suck at growing up
Yea I, must really suck at growing up
I can’t believe that this is life
This is not what growing up should feel like
I, I must suck at growing up
Yea I, must really suck at growing up
I can’t believe that this is life
This is not what growing up should feel like
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8. Is This The Life
Yesterday, I saw an old college friend and caught up over beers
While we talked we learned we were both disenchanted by our careers
Cause no matter how hard we both worked, we kept hitting a dead end
We could only keep pushing so hard at the walls closing in
Do you ever wonder . . .
Is this the life I chose?
Is this the life I want?
Looks like I made it
Just as I’m fading away
Some folks leave their job hoping to find one less absurd
Some folks try all their life to bring meaning to dreams long deferred
Some folks give up on work and just focus their love on family and friends
Some folks talk about life over beers as if it were some spiritual cleanse
Do you ever wonder . . .
Is this the life I chose?
Is this the life I want?
Looks like I made it
Just as I’m fading away
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9. Everybody Fakes It
So it starts
I’m starting a new chapter
No one told me how hard
That it was gonna be, no-no one really could have told me
And I guess I gotta do this on my own
So here I stand
I don’t know what I’m doing
It’ll only be a moment
Till I’m found out
And everybody knows that I’m a phony
I feel like I got in over my head
Everybody fakes it once in a while
Everybody makes believe they have what it takes sometimes
We all start out as a lie
There ain’t no other way to get by
So here I go
My foot is lifted headed forward
Nervous and alone
And hopeful my experiences
Carry me along
At least until I get my head on straight
Everybody fakes it once in a while
Everybody makes believe they have what it takes sometimes
We all start out as a lie
There ain’t no other way to get by
Don’t you fall-a, fall a-part
Don’t you fall-a, fall a-part
Everybody fakes it once in a while
Everybody makes believe they have what it takes sometimes
We all start out as a lie
Everybody fakes it once in a while
Everybody makes believe they have what it takes sometimes
We all start out as a lie
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10. Hey Mama
Hey mama, I been thinking
You have always been there
Wishing me the world
Or anything that sits up in the sky
Remember Christmas morning
Bright and wide eyed, you were yawning
I was so excited reaching underneath the tree
Remember cello lessons
Hot dogs on the ride home
Bet you never realized
How much those car rides meant to me
I know you’ve got your memories of me
I’ve got my memories too
And as I’ve aged, my understanding changed
And my appreciation grew
Mom, I love you
Remember breakfast dinners
Eggs and bacon stacked within
A bagel on the table with the dogs begging beside
You kept the drawings I had made
When I was younger
Nearly faded from my memory
But saved as good as new
I know you’ve got your memories of me
I’ve got my memories too
And as I’ve aged, my understanding changed
And my appreciation grew
Mom, I love you
And I think
To myself
What a wonderful world
And I remember dancing with you
At my wedding
Don’t know what my life would be like
If it hadn’t been for you
I know you’ve got your memories of me
I’ve got my memories too
And as I’ve aged, my understanding changed
And my appreciation grew
Mom, I love you
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11. I Don't Know How To Pray
Something inside me is dying
And my eyes set on nothing but crying
So I look to the sky all heavy inside
Saying “why, oh why”
I don’t know how
To let it all out
I never really prayed before
My Lord, my Lord
I feel so ashamed
Cause I don’t know how to pray
My prayers are selfish
And asking for gain
I don’t know what to say
I don’t know how to pray
I hold both my hands together
And I ask for things to get better
But have I the right, is this all a lie
Have I led an unworthy life
And my guilt-ridden faith
Attempts to give praise
When I should be damned, for sure
My Lord, my Lord
I feel so ashamed
Cause I don’t know how to pray
My prayers are selfish
And asking for gain
I don’t know what to say
I don’t know how to pray
Am I lost and too far gone
Am I going about this all wrong
My lips they are still and stay that way till
Something trembles out like a sigh
I speak the only words that I can remember
From church back when I was a child
Our Father, our father
Who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us this day, our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us, deliver us, deliver us all from evil
Amen, amen
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12. We'll Take This Road Together
Oh won’t you hold my hand
There may be danger up ahead
Keep an eye on whistling leaves
The darkness has already spread
But we’ll take this road together
Wherever it may lead
We’ll take this road together
Just you and me, just you and me
How did we come this far
The past is way out of view
I ain’t complaining, my love
I’m happy to be lost out here with you
Cause we’ll take this road together
Wherever it may lead
We’ll take this road together
Just you and me, just you and me
We may have made
A couple wrong turns by mistake
And we may question
Every single choice that we have made
But at the end of the day
There’s nothing I would change
And we took this road together
Wherever it may lead
We’ll take this road together
Just you and me, just you and me
And we’ll take this road together
Wherever it may lead
We’ll take this road together
Just you and me, just you and me
We’ll take this road together, oh
(repeat and fade)
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